"Sure,
my behavior screams “good girl.” But my deceitful heart
whispers “jealousy, pride, envy, hate, anger, bitterness, greed.” It’s not
a pretty picture. And a wrestling match has begun in me. Suddenly I’m
painfully aware of my desperate need for grace.
because here's the deal: to a lot of people I am perceived as a "good girl."
I know because you tell me – even a person I had only known for three weeks.
Our conversation went a little like this...
"because you're a good girl."
"that's how you perceive me?"
"yes, very much so."
I just sat there and basically told them that I'm in need of grace just as much as the next person. I didn't want them to put me on a pedestal.
I want people to know that I still sin, I still have my struggles, and I still fail every_single_day.
No, I haven't done anything wild or crazy, but I still struggle with pride, anger, jealously and the like.
so, please. please realize, even though I put off a "good girl" vibe sometimes, that doesn't mean I'm perfect.